Would you just shut your mouth....

You are probably wondering whats up with my title to this post. To be honest I am struggling right now with something I said. Sometimes I just wished I really took the time to think about the consequences about what I am going to say before I blurt it out and end up ruining someones day. I did it yesterday. I did a horrible job of it and totally ruined their day. I feel so often I lack self-control in this area of my life. I am thinking about how much something is affecting me that hasn't happened or that has happened and then I happen. I blurt out what my thoughts are without really even thinking about the consequences of them. And then after I blurt them out I feel like I crawl into my shell and don't know how to talk about what I just said or why I said it the way the I did. So not only have I blurted out something hurtful but I have now no words to say about why I said what I said. Wow. Am I making any sense. I sure hope so.
In years past I have really tried to dig into the Word and what it says about the tongue. And I was just again looking at some verses this morning. I would like to share a few of those here with you.
Psalm 39:1-5 NLT
1 I said to myself, “I will watch what I do
and not sin in what I say.
I will hold my tongue
when the ungodly are around me.”
2 But as I stood there in silence—
not even speaking of good things—
the turmoil within me grew worse.
3 The more I thought about it,
the hotter I got,
igniting a fire of words:
4 “Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be.
Remind me that my days are numbered—
how fleeting my life is.
5 You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand.
My entire lifetime is just a moment to you;
at best, each of us is but a breath.”

Proverbs 10:31-32 in the Message.
31 A good person's mouth is a clear fountain of wisdom;
a foul mouth is a stagnant swamp.

32 The speech of a good person clears the air;
the words of the wicked pollute it.


Proverbs 18:20-21 in the Message
20 Words satisfy the mind as much as fruit does the stomach;
good talk is as gratifying as a good harvest.

21 Words kill, words give life;
they're either poison or fruit—you choose.

Proverbs 21:23 in the Message
23 Watch your words and hold your tongue;
you'll save yourself a lot of grief.

As I meditate on these verses this morning I want to become a wise person in the way I use my words. I don't want to hurt people anymore with things that I say without thinking. I want to come to a place where I only say things that are uplifting and not degrading. I pray this morning that you bring me to a place Lord where I can learn this wisdom from you.

Last Week in Review..

Last week was certainly a busy week for us around here. We did lots of different things. I almost don't remember all that we did at this point.
On Monday, a friend of mine came over in the morning to do our Bible study we are doing on Spiritual gifts by Eddie Rasnake. It has been a good thing to be involved in a daily time with God. It helps to get me into the Word on a daily basis, without it I wouldn't do it because I chose not to do it sadly enough. I just don't have the discipline to do it on my own without a guidance. Is it wrong of me to not dig into the Word on my own without something pushing me towards it? I don't know, probably in some respect it is.
Monday evening my home was filled with a bunch of testosterone cause my husband had a worship discipleship night. He leads our worship ministry at the church we attend. He holds a once-a-month discussion time for anyone interested in worship. They talk about a topic or scripture and then take time to pray for the worship ministry as a whole.
On Tuesday, I went to spend the day with my sister-in-law who is here from out of town for the day. It was a good relaxing day.
On Wednesday the kids and I ran errands in the morning and went to the doctor for my 6 month old's well baby check. While there I mentioned something to my doctor that has been weighing on my heart and mind for awhile. I mentioned to them about the opening at the back of his throat. We were told that he has a partial cleft palette that needs to be seen by a specialist and then repaired at some point and time in the near future. Hearing this news really kind of freaked me out a bit. I didn't want to believe it, but somehow I just knew that is what it was after doing the research I had done. So now we are facing getting our finances in order to help take care of this need. At this point we have no insurance so tomorrow afternoon I will be filling out a bunch of paperwork to try and get my baby covered under some government assistance. So prayers in this area of life would be greatly appreciated.
The rest of the week held little things here and there like Women's prayer group, family night, date night, panic attack, stress, small group.
So today I am left searching my heart about several things about my recent stress and how it is affecting me and why I am letting it affect me so. Is most of my stress having to do with the situation with my baby and the financial things involved with that or is there something else. As I continue on this journey of figuring things out with God I know that all things are possible and that he will take care of us. I am His child. He loves me. I am going to try to rest in that.