This and That

Last night after going through some old photo albums and realizing it had been a little over a year since we have printed any pictures my husband and I spent some time going through our folders and folders of pictures on the computer picking out pictures that we would like to include in our photo albums. Sometimes I think that photo albums are a little boring and I wish that I could be a little more creative with them but I just don't feel like that creative of a person. I think it would be fun and great to scrapbook but I lack the skills to get it done. I just wouldn't even know how to start. Well anyway maybe some day I will be brave enough to give it a try.
Going through all the pictures of the last year was fun but some pictures were also very hard. There were pictures of our move from main street to living with our friends for 5 months, many cute and adorable pictures of our son, pictures of a friend's birthday where we announced that we were pregnant and then the pictures that followed our miscarriage late last August. Although it was good to see all these pictures it brought pain and tears to me.
You see this past weekend I passed the due date for our heavenly baby. The day was beautiful. And friend of mine came over and helped me plant my garden, and then my husband and I planted a tree in memory of our baby. It was also a very painful thing to do, but it was also what I needed for that day. I thank God for the peace that he gave me on that day. I know that as time continues to pass that there will be certain things that will trigger my tears and emotions, but most of all I am learning more and more how to deal with the thoughts and feelings of our loss. I also know that it is ok to feel these emotions and feelings. I know that someday I will get to meet our baby in heaven.
I am also filled with joy and gratitude for the little man that is growing inside of me. I can't believe that I am already in my third trimester. The feeling of the baby moving inside of me at all hours of the day is the most amazing thing ever. I look forward to the day that I get to meet this little man. I know that it will be a day filled with love, joy, tears, and many emotions. I am trusting God that everything will be ok with this little guy and I know that he will be a blessing to many because he has been such a blessing to me and my family already.