A Little Boy's Nightmare Becomes a Reality

Yesterday morning I was awoken to the sound of my 4 year old crying in terror. It was a cry I have never heard. I got up as fast as I could and went into his room. I grabbed him out of his bed and headed towards the living room. (Didn't really want to wake up the 21 month old yet). I got him to a place where I finally got him calmed down enough to talk to me about what was going on. He told me that he had a bad dream. So I asked him about his dream. He told me that daddy broke the car. I probed a bit further to see what was there. He continued to say that daddy broke the car by hitting a van. I explained to him that daddy was safe and at work and that daddy was ok. It didn't really seem to calm him much more. So I told him we would just pray. So we prayed that daddy would be safe, that daddy wouldn't get hurt. We prayed for protection over daddy as he drove. After praying for awhile, he seemed to come to a place of peace. I shoved off the dream, not thinking to much about it again. I did tell a few friends about the dream he had. They thought it was kind of interesting.
Well today came about and my husband was on his way home from work. I had called him and talked to him seeing when he would be home. Being as we don't live to far from where he works, I knew it wouldn't be too long before he came home. I was still at the neighbors when I had called him and didn't figure I would be back at the house when he got home. I was really surprised when I came home and he still wasn't here. I gave thought to and even wondered where or what could be keeping him. Then I remembered he said something about stopping and getting a shake on his way home. Not too long after that thought I got a phone call from him saying that he had been in an accident and that he needed me to come with the insurance information to give to the police. The only problem was, the boys were asleep for their naps. I quickly ran over to the neighbors again and summoned out my friend and asked her to come over to watch the kids cause my husband was in an accident and needed me.
There are several things about this accident that blows my mind. First of all, my sons dream became a reality today. It was pretty much as he had said, my husband "broke" the car by hitting a van. I believe God gave my son a prophecy yesterday and it was fulfilled today. I feel that God may have given it to him to teach us all a lesson. Don't ever take any dream like that lightly. To really seek his face in times as such. I don't really know much about prophecy, maybe this is something God is asking me to learn more about. I believe we prayed for a protection that only our heavenly Father could have brought about. I mean he could have been T-boned, he could have been going fast enough to split the telephone poll my husband came to a rest at after he got hit by the van.
Another thing I want to praise God for is having my friend come home from work early on a day she was suppose to work until late. If she hadn't been there, not sure what I would have done. God has shown himself faithful once again to our family and for that I am eternally grateful.
I want to be more aware of what my Father is doing around me at all times. I want to really seek God out and know if prophecy is something he wants me to study more of. I want to listen to what my little men have to say and really take it to heart. Thank you Lord for your faithfulness to us.

Saul and David

The other day I was reading in I Samuel 24 where Saul has been in search of David trying to kill him. Saul goes into a cave to relieve himself. It just so happened that this cave he chose also is where David and his men were hiding. Now here is the passage that I am speaking about.

¹ After Saul returned from fighting the Philistines, he was told that David had gone into the wilderness of En-gedi. ² So Saul chose 3,000 elite troops from all Israel and went to search for David and his men near the rocks of the wild goats. ³ At the place where the road passes some sheepfolds, Saul went into a cave to relieve himself. But as it happened, David and his men were hiding farther back in that very cave! ⁴ “Now’s your opportunity!” David’s men whispered to him. “Today the Lord is telling you, ‘I will certainly put your enemy into your power, to do with as you wish.’” So David crept forward and cut off a piece of the hem of Saul’s robe. ⁵ But then David’s conscience began bothering him because he had cut Saul’s robe. ⁶ “The Lord knows I shouldn’t have done that to my lord the king,” he said to his men. “The Lord forbid that I should do this to my lord the king and attack the Lord’s anointed one, for the Lord himself has chosen him.” ⁷ So David restrained his men and did not let them kill Saul. After Saul had left the cave and gone on his way, ⁸ David came out and shouted after him, “My lord the king!” And when Saul looked around, David bowed low before him. ⁹ Then he shouted to Saul, “Why do you listen to the people who say I am trying to harm you? ¹⁰ This very day you can see with your own eyes it isn’t true. For the Lord placed you at my mercy back there in the cave. Some of my men told me to kill you, but I spared you. For I said, ‘I will never harm the king—he is the Lord’s anointed one.’ ¹¹ Look, my father, at what I have in my hand. It is a piece of the hem of your robe! I cut it off, but I didn’t kill you. This proves that I am not trying to harm you and that I have not sinned against you, even though you have been hunting for me to kill me. ¹² “May the Lord judge between us. Perhaps the Lord will punish you for what you are trying to do to me, but I will never harm you. ¹³ As that old proverb says, ‘From evil people come evil deeds.’ So you can be sure I will never harm you. ¹⁴ Who is the king of Israel trying to catch anyway? Should he spend his time chasing one who is as worthless as a dead dog or a single flea? ¹⁵ May the Lord therefore judge which of us is right and punish the guilty one. He is my advocate, and he will rescue me from your power!”

¹⁶ When David had finished speaking, Saul called back, “Is that really you, my son David?” Then he began to cry. ¹⁷ And he said to David, “You are a better man than I am, for you have repaid me good for evil. ¹⁸ Yes, you have been amazingly kind to me today, for when the Lord put me in a place where you could have killed me, you didn’t do it. ¹⁹ Who else would let his enemy get away when he had him in his power? May the Lord reward you well for the kindness you have shown me today. ²⁰ And now I realize that you are surely going to be king, and that the kingdom of Israel will flourish under your rule. ²¹ Now swear to me by the Lord that when that happens you will not kill my family and destroy my line of descendants!”

²² So David promised this to Saul with an oath. Then Saul went home, but David and his men went back to their stronghold.

This passage really spoke to me in several ways. One that we should always try to listen to what God is telling us. Sometimes we are just so set on doing what "we" want to do and no matter what God says we go ahead and do it. I just think of how differently David's life would have turned out had he followed through on the prompting of his men to take the opportunity to kill Saul. Instead, David took this situation and turned it for good. He humbled himself and spoke face to face with Saul about what he could have done to him but he chose to do what he felt God would see as the right thing.
Another thing this passage brought out to me was how important it is to live your life in such a way that people can tell you are different because of what the Spirit is doing inside of you. God is and always will be faithful to you who are faithful to him. Look to him for direction. Listen for his voice. He will show you which way you should go.
I want to be a woman who listens to God's voice and not just what, I, myself wants to do. I often fail at this in life. I chose to go my own way, do my own thing. Lord my you continue to bring conviction into my heart.

At the heart of Death

There is something that has been on my heart a lot in the last couple of weeks, death. It happens in a blink of an eye. One moment someone you love is there and the next moment they are not.
One of my good friends said goodbye to their little baby girl at full term even before she opened her eyes. The significance of that is I didn't actually find out about it until the day and the exact time they were really saying goodbye for good during her funeral. I heard about it on Facebook. I read. I cried. I screamed. I grieved for my friends. I can't even imagine what an experience like that would be like. I keep trying to think of what it might be like to carry around your baby for nine months being sick and feeling the kicks and then nothing. One amazing thing through it all is our heavenly Father. He was speaking to them even before this day happened. He gave them certain scripture that now makes sense in everything that happens. They have their faith. They have their family. But most of all they have a heavenly Father who promises to never leave or forsake them. I know personally their will be amazing growth in me through this, but I look forward to the things this teaches to my friends.
My parents also lost friends close to them. It was Monday. My Jabez's birthday. I was once again reading facebook updates when I came across something I am sure my mom would have mentioned had she known. I make the call and make sure my mom knows that some really close friends of theirs were killed instantly in a head on collision the day before. The world stops for a moment while my mom soaks it in and then there are the tears. A couple was snatched away from this like together. I think how amazing that must be to be able to meet our heavenly Father with your soul mate here on Earth. There is no missing your spouse because they are gone and you are not. They were a couple who were filled greatly with the spirit of God. They have left quite a legacy for others.
And then yet another tragedy strikes my parents. A man my daddy has known for over 40 years was found slumped over in his pickup. He said early in the week he wasn't feeling well. His energy just wasn't there, but he assured his wife that if this was his time he was ready to go. They made the doctor's appointment but they never made it there. My daddy talked about it last night chocking back tears. Oh how my heart hurts for my parents and all that they have been through in the last few weeks.
What is my time? What is my day? It is never revealed to us. That is why we must remain in him. Pursue your heavenly Father with abandonment. Seek whatever he may have for you. Share the love of Jesus with as many people as you can. Make your life a contagious life that others want what you have. That is my desire.